Not Necessarily Necessary

I've made a life of not saying what I'd like to say, what I ought to say, or what I need to say.

I've made a life of not allowing myself to feel what I'm feeling.

As far as I can tell, this is fairly normal - there is nothing unique about my situation - we all keep quiet when we want to share, and we refuse to feel when feeling is all we can do.

I'm writing this because, well, it's necessary.

I learned something this week - a lesson from a fictional character to, of course, another fictional character - but fictional or not, I loved it. Sometimes speaking may seem unnecessary, or too soon, or too late - and sometimes maybe it is - but I don't want to keep letting that stop me. There is a difference between unnecessary and wrong.

So feel what you're feeling.

Joy

Pain

Hope

Fear

Love

Confusion

Happiness

Sadness

Confidence

Doubt

Say what you're thinking.

Thank you.

I'm sorry.

I missed you.

I still do.

Stop.

Go.

You're wrong.

I'm wrong.

Yes.

No.

I've made a life of silencing myself. In all honesty, it's been a pretty good life, but I think I'm ready for a better one. So maybe I'll try this whole speaking and feeling thing, and see how it goes. Maybe it's a good idea...maybe it's not. Join me and we'll find out together - it'll be an adventure, and everybody loves a good adventure.

Honesty it moderation, and with discretion. Please. People are fragile.

But seriously....

Sometimes, things just need to be said.

It's always necessary.